Im currently in a state where I can make a proper decision.
There's so many things running into my mind.
I don't know if I want this or not.
I can't say if this is worth my time. Only if I could foresee
the future, I would be able to say.
But life isn't about living every moment in a bliss.
Everything comes in a package. Maybe, I just have to decide.
And then, face my consequences later.
For the better or for the worse, doesn't lay in my hands.
Now it just comes up to one question.
Am I in this or not? I truly cannot answer.
Thoughts are clashing in my mind.
For a moment, I think it should just continue this way.
And another, I feel I should drop everything right here and walk away.
It was fine at the beginning. (Like always)
But things are different already. The way im treated,
it feels like im just an option. Yes, my fault. Everything's my fault.
RIGHT? Is that what you want me to do?
Take all blames? Listen to you? Apologize for the things
I've not done? In which way are you being fair?
You know what? There's one hour for your birthday.
I really don't wanna spoil your day by saying what's going through
my mind. Maybe, I should just wait.
Labels: Fuck my life.
